Context is key in understanding the full reality of any given moment.

Looks on the level to me

Yesterday’s post brings into focus the importance of perspective, as what one focuses on, maybe more accurately, how one focuses, can contribute dramatically in building not just ones worldview, but how they let that worldview shape them. That’s my knee jerk reactionary stance to the past day or so, phrased within the linguistic pretense of looking at big picture stuff. The more immediate, microlevel declaration involves nothing more than the simplicity of the following: life can be a whole lot to deal with every now and then.

Like many, I most certainly get put through the ringer this time of year, and even aside from general disposition that has not always been the cheeriest, seasonal depression definitely hits me quite hard in January, and I have to attempt to salvage whatever little mood I can in order to push through the bleaker days. To that point, while yesterday’s article ended up, on some level, being a sloppy mess, at least it simply was, as it represents a ridiculous effort in the face of extreme apathy and existential misery that was attempting to restrain me from doing anything at all yesterday, so with that in consideration, somethingness is definitely preferred in the face of nothingness.

And it is all perspective, as I’ve essentially been pushing myself to maintain a fairly intense standard of expectation for myself for the entirety of last year, so with that in mind, even when I lag on certain days, it’s lagging from a place of respectable elevation. Which I guess is good that I am looking at what is essentially only a minor snag as such, as it represents little more, and should not be given any greater weight of concern than need be. Active Time Event represents a project of sorts, so on most days, it represents an ongoing effort in building a repository for information, both in the vein related to the ideas of gaming and wisdom, but at other moments, it does also bear the standard mental health assistant, as on the days I am thriving, it helps to be a great reminder of the fact I am able to have reached such personal moments of accomplishment in flourishing. On the days I am just surviving, it is a great reminder that sometimes, just surviving is enough.

Just for the sake of the old “college effort”, I have continued to play both Mario Kart Tour and World, and find both to be satisfying in different ways, so it is another excellent inflection point that is can be apples to oranges in terms of quality, and maybe more of matching vibes than anything else that matters. I need to find more time to play Donkey Kong Bananza, as one of the games key factors is just how easily digestible the experience is, so if I’m not feeling satiated in relation to its portion sizes, it is more so just the idea I’m not even showing up to table to eat anything.

Well, I suppose that is all for now. If you find it difficult to thrive, at least do yourself the respect of finding ways to continue to survive, and I’ll do the same.

-Pashford